Its Not Me, Its You!

I know you'll be goin' to read this.
Yeah, you pretty follow me wherever i go. You should get yourself
a car so you can keep up LOL. Oh, i forgot you have your skeletal bike.
Well, eat my dust.

Right now, my mind is gone. I mean its spinning round. Yeah, i dunno what's with the gross reddish brown color on my hair that makes it shine under teh sun. See? Im crazy.
I dunno WTH on earth i am saying now.
I bet you feel the same. how are you? did you try teh pick up line i've made for you?
did it work for her?
Pathetic.

You think i wouldn't be hurt when you told me you're dating a bitch?
You have too much ego, way too big for you and i want to perforate it like a balloon full of hot air. You're crazy.

Let me go.
I'm tired.
Im sick.

Don't call me Bibi. Call me Fonzi, like teh way you used to call me after
the night we met inside the bathroom in high school.

Alright.
Thanks for e'rything.
Buh-bye.
XOXO.

Constantly Fighting

I know its normal for lovers to have fights sometime. But if you fight over things that aren't really worth your while to even argue about, its pretty annoying. Last Wednesday we quarreled on text. I don't think we really fought, its just that i was kidding when he was serious, so he's kinda melancholic about it haha.

him: hi bibi how's u?
me: eto oki lng, watching news on tv  ^_^
him: inuman kmi ng tropa ko. sori cant go home early. aylabyu! :)
me: enjoy yourselves. aylabme too. XD
him: aylabyu. jan ka lng i shall return ok
me: yah, aylabme too. hehehe
him: wtf. siling k0 iluvu. an0ng i love me t0o man?
me: i love myself plus you love me. i soo like myself, Geeez! aheckz.
him: litse! telme kng galit ka. uwi na lng aq.
me: thanks ha.. feel ko ang swerte swerte ko tlga cuz u said u love me. i love me too. haha!
(He didn't reply)
me: oh wat it do bibi tahykz. nalunod ka na ba xa redhorz? tgal muh makreply ahhh
him: kainis ka kc iba na nirereply mo kass e.
me: whats wrong ba sa reply ko? arte mo ha
him: iluvu too lng gusto ko nga reply mo. ngaa lain na ya gnatext mo haw?
me: hay naku bolero numero uno ka.
him: d kta bnobola syet. anu ba tlga nraramdaman mo?
me: mahal kita. ang tanong: ako mahal mo ba?
him: tnatanong mo pa yan kass? nagdehydrate na ko sa kakasabi ng aylabyu sau ah!
me: uber ka. di ako nkkpagbiruan sau
him: lalo na ako. kass im siryus. ano ba sa tingin mo nararamdaman ko sau?
me: i dunno! matulog na ko. wag mo ko storbohin sa couch ka matulog bye!
him: (cry emoticon)

He wasn't able to go home that night. I tried to contact him but his phone was sort of turned off. i dunno...
I didn't go to work the next day. I waited for him to come home.
Finally, he showed up before dinner.God, he looked so unclean. He was wearing the same clothes he wore the time he left.
He sat on the couch, turned on the TV set. He was so quiet. He dropped the remote control on the table.

He stood up and went to the kitchen. I heard a shattering sound. Darn, he broke the water glass.

I walked, took a step at a time. At first, 'twas so easy for me but as i go on, i found myself fidgeting with my glasses as i move closer to him. I got clumsy, i felt awkward as i catch a glimpse of his dangerously stabbing looks. I felt like the ground that I'm walking on gets mutable. At first it was so rough that friction has helped me balance my steps then suddenly it became slippery and I'm trying to get a way out of it. Feels like I'm gonna stumble and fall from emotions i cant explain. (OA masyado) 

We have lived together for like almost two years already. He's a very great guy for me, at least. And i think i am so lucky to have him in my life. Just remembering the days back in high school, he was just a dream that is so impossible for me to reach. Now that i have him and he's all mine, seems like the good Lord has given me the best treat of my life.
 

But lately we often argue about nonsensical things. We often fight about DOTA, his vices, his shyness.. i understand that he cant brag about this relationship. i know this has to be always hidden.. i already know where to place myself. It just came to the point that i got tired and sick of away-bati, fighting over the tiniest things. Feels like anything i do is a mistake and feels like im not appreciated. Sometimes I think we're done arguing but later on I'll find myself throwing objects upon him cause he just wont shut up.
 
Everyday isn't so wonderful without our battles and arguments. Sometimes i just don't wanna talk anymore 'cause i know we will just argue again but still we end up arguing 'cause im not saying anything!
 

Hay naku. I really, really dunno what to do. Nakakaloka!

Super Duper Cheesy

i have just deleted my old Plurk account. i also deactivated my old Facebook account.
i know this is sooo wrong. but i love him, im sorry. i'll do whatever he suggests me to do.
he deleted his. so i deleted mine as he suggested. Fair enough.
i lost contacts with some friends.
but its okay, he's here. and we're okay, finally....

Thanks to some friends who were just around the corner.
And to some friends who might be islands apart, yet they're always
there for me to console me when im lonesome.

i've been feeling sooo empty these couple of weeks back.
i feel so emotionally devastated and i went nuts!
but thanks, i've been through it already.
i thought im losing him but i've been firm.
i still have him.
and probably, we'll be together
till the feeling gets weak
and the love expires..
Goodluck to me, LOL.