Gay Crushes on Straight People

“How do friendships survive a subtle infusion of love? And what’s to become of a friendship hampered by one-way romance? In every relationship, I think, one loves the other “more,” but the gestalt wonderland of togetherness seems always to overwhelm any discrepancies. A starry night made better by a full moon.


But when there’s no reciprocation, when there’s such a gnawing, abject incompleteness, nobody could advise me. There’s a difference between unrequited love and impossible love. It is impossible for Dave to love me because I am a man. That impossibility is not a factor in most relationships.”

-from Richard Morgan best essay I have ever read about gays having crushes on straight men.

Out Of My System

My ex-boyfriend.

I just don’t really think of him like I used to.

This month was the month it all fell apart.

Just now, as I thought of him it was more of an “oh yeah, he exists” and it happened only because of Facebook.

Then I realized, I just don’t think about him anymore.

He seems so far away in the grand scheme of things…like such a long ago imprinted on my heart that taught me everything a relationship should NEVER be.

I don’t miss him.

I don’t hate him.

I’ve just reached a place of indifference. A place where I recognize I’m good, and I’ll only get better.
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